End this pain.

Seriously, I rather study, run 8 clic, starve myself, do nothing everyday than go to work.

Just how stress and demanding can this get? I kept telling my mom and bro that I want to quit. But I just don't know how to quit.

How I wish my mom can barge into the office and drag me out forcefully. She'll be my knight in shining armour.

Yesterday was sad. Today is miserable. I really want this to end. Fucking want this to end.

I don't remember when was the last time that I really enjoy doing something.

At office, I feel like a caged bird. Because I'm alone, I silently do things against my will and act like I'm perfectly fine with it. Why can't I be more courageous and let him have a piece of my mind?! Let him know that I'm aware of the exploitation that's going on.

Thinking about it, exploitation is actually "learning" in his dictionary. Euphemism huh.

Yeah yeah I did learn. The ugly side of human that is. And how you should speak up for yourself before things aggravate and when there's no turning back.

OMG, on a side note. I'm so inspired by MOE's advertisement that I want to teach. How how. I just love the school atmosphere and how teachers and students work together to achieve great things. :') I really love and respect all my teachers. They are awesome beings.

It's really sad that the mercenary part of me is stopping me from pursuing this dream.